Inside the Mind of a Lunatic

6:08pm: "I can't tell what kind of life I've led today.."

9:55pm: This ones a keeper.

10:18pm: I've had a headache for 3 days straight. Maybe its cause Im actually getting sleep.

11:47pm: Wow, thats the best crack I've ever had.
I hung out with the Peralejos.

4:08pm: I just got back from West Virginia that was full of giant snakes, giant spiders, muddy quad riding, adventures in the woods, horseback riding, Horsesweat all over my ass, car rides, country diners, "liar, liar, pants on fire, cross my heart and hope to die", Noeys new boyfriend, Sexist country boys, JerseyNative-WestVirginized people, and SoapNet. I've decided my summer was well put together and the most adventurous I've had since I was a kid. I went to the beach a lot. I've decided on what I want to do when I grow up and what kind of life I want to have. I've spent hundreds (thousands?) of dollars...on clothes... and I went to masquerades, pool parties, birthday parties, bbqs, campouts, beach days, boardwalk days/night, craziest parties, and latenight walks with Britt. This summer has been pretty awesome now that I look back on it and Im glad I spent it with the people I did. Im finally warming up to school starting and I think it'll be a good year.

4:58pm: Im going to West Virginia from Friday - Monday...woo.

8:34pm: Emmys.

3:52pm: Britt's Masquerade is in three days. I'm syked. Ive got almost everything. I cant wait. Im gonna see the Bhuyans who I havent seen since my birthday last March since they go to an all boys school now. Im in a dancing mood now. I just...wont dance in those shoes. Heels are a bit hard.

12:13pm: Yesterday I...
* Went Shopping with Mom
* Ate ten popsicles
* Got my ears pierced
* Dyed my hair
* Bought shoes for the masquerade
* Bought Bracelets
* Bought locket

To do
* Wrap presents
* Get card
* Get chunk bracelet
* Read A Great and Terrible Beauty
* Go school shopping
* UNDERWEAR!
* Figure out what Dad did with Britts gift. (Went missing like a week ago.)

1:07am: Nick Cage in an Indie Film?
Longest relationship:
10 months.

-Shortest relationship:
About 30 seconds

-How many times have you truly been in love?
Once.

-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?
Three.

-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
Thought.

-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
Ah yes, Robert Carmine can do that to defenseless girls.

-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
Yes. Three times. Maybe four.

-Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend, if so when?
A month agoish.

-Are you happy being single or in relationships?
I like being single. I only like being in a relationship if its love. Or if it could go somewhere.

-Have you ever been cheated on?
I've been betrayed. Twice. Shit.

-What is the worst part of being in a relationship?
Waiting for the rough patches.

-Worst relationship?
I don't know.

-Have you ever had your heart broken, by who?
Vijey.

-Have you ever broken someones heart?
I didnt have their hearts to break?

-Do you talk to any of your exes?
Nope. Bittches.

-If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you?
No.


-Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?
...I dont know. I doubt it. Much. Very much. I'm an asshole.

-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
I thought I was.

-Have you dated people who were not good to you?
Yep.

-Have you been in an abusive relationship?
Yeah, I kick Vijey's butt all the time...just kidding.

-Have you dated someone older then you?
Three...four times?

-Younger?
Once.

-What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?
None of them were for me.

-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Im if-y.

-Believe in love at first sight?
I believe in lust at first sight.

-Ever dated two people at once?
I aint no hoe, son.

-Ever been given a promise ring?
...I aint no hoe, son.

-Ever been given an Engagement ring?
...No.

-Do you want to get married?
Yes.

-Do you have something to say to any of your exes?
"I hope you choke on a horse dick in your sleep." Oh wait my ex said that to me! He was a keeper.

-Ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
Nope.

-Ever liked someone elses boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yep.

-Do you believe in true love?
I find it hard to believe in love.

-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
I perfer the numbing.

5:07pm: + Colorguard
+ Angel + Brittany were over.
+ Til the break-o-dawn talks with Vijey
+ Target.
+ Beach.
+ Angel sleeping over
+ Harry Potter scene it.
+ Ari-Rebecca back massages.
+ Mid-morning book reading hours in my bedroom.
+ And 13 little blue envelopes.

...That about sums the past two days up.

9:43pm: Lets see. I saw Cirque Soleil 2 nights ago. It was pretty awesome but everything there cost a fortune. Okay then the next day I went to a river and went tubing which was not relaxing at all because we had to push out way out of trees, snakes, and snapping turtles. Later I went to see World Trade Center, that was good. Then today I woke up and went to the beach. And I just got back from Borders and spent 70 bucks. I think thats the most I spent.

I got:
A Northern Light
Faeries Landing - Manga
A Great and Terrible Beauty
Breaking Point

And I got two other books at Target:
13 Little Blue Envelopes
You Have to Kiss A Lot of Frogs

Earlier I was in the young adults/ manga section of Borders with my ipod on and this guy who worked there walked past me with a pile of books and he asked "What are you listening to?"
I didn't know he was talking to me at first but I looked up at him and he was standing next to me. I said "Rooney." And he was like "Rooney..." and I wasn't sure if he meant it as a bad thing orrr... I dont know but then he asked if I had any Pixies on my ipod. I told him I don't know and he was like "Aw, come on" And I said "Well I know I have them on my computer?" and some lady asked him where something was and I could tell I was SO red because I get so uncomfortable talking to people but I was hoping he didn't notice because I was sunburnt. Well there goes Ari, making a fool of herself again. "I have them on my computer?" COME ON! hahaha. Idiot.

2:27am: I got 2 books, 2 magazines, 3 movies. I have to go tubing tomorrow, when I plan to start reading one. I went to Reb's birthday today. It was fun but it seemed to have gone real fast. I came home and Cass and I explored the new developement and claimed a house built there ours. We're going to go again tomorrow morning. We watched Princess Diaries because Robert Carmine is sexy and we watched Shes the Man. We went outside and saw like 3 meteors. And then 3 drunk neighbors.

* To Do/Want List *

+ Find my gold necklace.
+ Read my 2 books.
+ Work on the rifle routine.
+ Start riding my bike again...maybe do a bike race or something.
+ Start writing something new.
+ Practice photography.


I think I want to be a photographer or a writer when I grow up. If I dont live off it I want to keep it a personal hobby.

1:15am: Life is tough, stick with it, Kids.

2:29am: Dear people i love rebecca because she is nice to me and we just ran outside. rebneexca is cool too. GODONIGHT.

1:29pm: Man guard is moving up to 3 days a week and by the time school starts its gonna be 6. This should be good. So the boy was being the best boyfriend in the world last night and then Britt and I got in a rumble. I blame Holly. Yes, Holly, I blame you...not really though. I just need someone to blame. I am going though. And Holly poured water so it made me look like I peed all over myself or just had a ton of ass-sweat or something weird going on there. Danielle and Noey just had a kind of.. "Oh god." kind of look on their face but in reality they were obviously thinking "Sure as hell glad I'm not in on this." Anyway Six Flags should be fun for you guys even though you know...you still suck for leaving me there. And I think we need to claim the cool freshmen before crazy ugly mohawk boy/ dinoboy/ bipolarfluteplayer's group steals them. I hate how easily the young ones fall for them. I either love the kids in band or want to kick their faces so far in it comes out their own ass. You know. A love/hate relationship. Anyway. Practice was fun last night... Alright I'm just talking now... PE-ACE.

11:29pm: Boys...

2:00am: There may come a time where a lass needs a lawyer, but diamonds are a girl's best friend.


So...guard was interesting. Danielle and I are going to have to lay the smack down on a few new girls if they don't stop all their talk.

12:21am: Guard.
...Its gonna be a good year.

1:11am: As you get older the days go faster. Its been a short summer. It was fun though. Satisfying I guess. I'm real excited for guard actually. I've got to work on my tosses for rifle...definantly. I've got my haircut. Crazy cut actually. I can't wait for the masquerade which is close but still basically marks the end of the summer for me. I just feel really blank right now. I've had days that are different and I've hung out with a bunch of different people this summer. I've been over the Peralejo's a lot lately. Espically my big week without Cass.

Britt & Cass spent the night last night. We sang karoke. Noey, Chrissy, Cass, Britt, and I had a GNOS dance party. I got my hair cut this morning. Rented Shopgirl & 16 (18?) blocks. Me and Zander went to Pizza Hut today. We went back to his house and watched "Shaun of the Dead", interesting. Bella & Armando came back and me and Bella did our routine fight on the couch whilst I explained the "Whats going on in this movie?" to her. Also routine. I came home and watched Shopgirl. That had to be an art film. You can tell when Noey decides she not dedicated to watch it after an hour and a half. Well...thats...about it. This is the first I've written in a while and I'm sure if you read this you know why. Because its not very interesting. I just need to blab sometimes...okay I'm good.

Goodnight.

2:32pm: They will see us waving from such great heights. "Come down now," They'll say.

6:08pm: So this is how I've been starting off my summer. I finished a book called "Elsewhere" which I liked. And I invented Banana and Chocolate Chip pancakes. I got my new Elite 4 rifle...which is basically just a fancy way of saying 39 inches. I think I'll name him Charlie! Just because I've been waiting to be able to name something Charlie...Imma list my goals for this summer even though you probably dont care.

Goals for Summer '06:
*Get my Abs back, shouldn't be too hard.
*Improve at rifle.
*Help out as much as I can in guard for our Seniors to have their best year.
*Finish Reading "Seventeenth Summer"
*Finish Re-Reading "Tithe"
*Get a tan...
*And not burn...
*Get in shape.
*Learn how to bake without a box.
*Get a job, perferably Manhatten Bagel.

Alright. I think thats good.

11:45am: I've seen the guy about 3 times before yesterday. I'll always be on the swingset and he'll always like run out from this one street with his dalmation. He'll stand in the same area for like 10 minutes, staring at me. I always get off and walk home and he'll be gone when I turn around. I was on the swingset yesterday and I saw him but I didnt recognize him at first until I saw the dalmation. Cassandra's grandfather was walking Shroeder but they were walking towards the direction of my house so he had his back to me. And the guy saw me get off and start walking so he crossed the street and like intercepted me from getting to my house so I cross the street to get where he just came from and he crossed back as soon as I did. I walked through the one street he originally came from and he came back and started following me and staring at me and peeking around to see where I was and as soon as I got out of his eyesite I ran like hell through the houses and I was pissed because I didnt have my cellphone to make him back off and when I got to Cass' house I almost fell down because I was shaking so much and I almost cried and I called my Dad and told him I was at Cass' and Id be home later but I ended up spending the night and having her walk me home in the morning...with Shroeder. Just let it be known that this is the second time in the past year or so that some crazy guy had followed me in a red truck. And in case I get abducted he was a tall white guy with brown hair and a dalmation. People are crazy, watch your back.

4:22pm: Comment on this entry and I will give you a letter. Write ten words beginning with that letter in your journal, including an explanation what the word means to you and why, and then pass out letters to those who want to play along.

L

1) Love- Its the greatest and the worst, what everyones anxious for but worries of. What is controlling my life right now and I just can't escape.

2) Lake Lenape - Everyones been there and its probably the crappiest park around but everyone still goes. I just wish I could camp there once. I havent gone camping since girl scouts. I just enjoy watching the water and lillypads on the campside. Exploring thered be nice..

3) Life- What more to say?

4) Labryinth- Oh god. The only way to describe my feelings and thoughts right now. I can't even figure out how I feel about anything or anyone. I dont know what I have to do to sort things out.

5) Lies - Damn. I hate liars. I hate stealers. I hate cheaters. I hate the lazy betraying people out there. Lies are forever.

6) Ladder - Describes the many steps we all took to get where we are. Its just a question as to whether you're gonna fall or make it to the top.

7) Laser Tag - One of my favorite games. I love playing it at the boardwalk. I played it in Canada and it was me, vijey, cass, zane, mike, zach, pucci, and probably a bunch of people I'm forgetting...Armando and Smallwood? That was probably the best or when I went to the boardwalk in the summer and played it all the time with Cass, Ryan, and Mikey..

8) Laughter - What I spent half my life doing.

9) Letters - I love letters. Its oldfashion but it gets me all excited to know someones writing me one for no reason.

10) Listentothelemur- Rick Bhuyan! I miss you and Nick. I love you guys... =/

9:06pm: School is almost out. I cant wait yet I almost fear it. I cant wait for guard because we're gonna be awesome this year whether I make rifle or not. I doubt I will. But I'm a HELL lot better than I was at tryouts. But the girls get better too. I cant wait to go to the beach.